Thursday, April 23, 2009
Broken hearted

What the choir teachers said made sense. It is a wonder we still manage to get a silver. It is not the singing, but the adittude of the members. Hopefully, things will change for the better.

So stressed and tired. I really don't know how to continue because I really find it hard to coordinate my time because my time is always spent on hmwk, hmwk, hmwk. I can't even study and that is very frightening cos my MYEs are next week. And I still have to go for CCA because I do feel obliged to. Like, what kind of example am I setting if I don't go, just because I have MYEs the very next day? I mean, so what? Other people also have exams and they are still going. But I really am afraid of failing for my exams because I feel so unprepared. I have yet to study for one single subject. Well, I manage to study a little of chem and bio today, but I doubt it can stay in my mind because my memory sucks when it comes to remembering things that are study-related. I really really don't want to fail.


Even a criminal gets to go on trial, but why are you condemning me when you have yet to give me the chance to prove myself of my capabilities. Am I that useless to you? Can't you spare a thought for my feelings? And why are you even judging me? Only God has the right to do that but you are not Him(far from Him, in fact) so why are you judging me? Stop telling me what I CAN'T do before I have even tried. Spare a thought for my feelings, please.